01/12/1998
I am naked, but not naked...
I do not really understand naked, because I like being naked
and feel good when I am naked...
Cloths are profane...
I am in a vast bright huge round place that is empty and
the light is white, not warm yellow sunlight...
I call out in this place because it's time to go...
I find a doorway that is like a tunnel and I call to the Queen,
saying, 'Mother, Mother, where are my cloths?'...
I never look at her, but I know she is not a human mother,
because she talks to my mind...
She shows me that I wear a thin see through gown and I tell her that
this is less than nothing, this is embarrassing garb and not cloths...
The gown is gone and I am naked again and I am no longer embarrassed...
The Queen sends a drone, who I also do not look at, that leads me
through the misty bright white dome to a place with raised platforms
and I have to climb them to get my cloths...
I throw them down and climb down for them,
to dress on the ground, since I am not naked without my cloths...
I am ready to leave, but still do not have my shoes and so I call out again
to the Queen, 'Mother, I still do not have shoes!'...
She sees my mind and the shoes I imagine, my dress shoes,
and she jokingly mocks at human vanity that puts some in poverty,
so others can live in vanity...
The Queen shows me how it seems when the view is from alien eyes:
humans have beady eyes, shifty eyes that flip back and forth,
without looking steady, without sinking in and absorbing...
The Watchers are silent within and
their huge eyes drink in all that they view...
Our minds also flit about, while we fail to understand,
dancing in circles...
The Watchers are still within, their minds not understanding,
but absorbing and joining in the essences...
We fear and avoid our teachers, but they hold our souls and
lead us ever so slowly into Life...
02/18/1998
I wake with the images flooding my mind of Shishwey
Drones looking down on me...
Their eyes are flat with rims, which are small ridges,
giving the head the strange shape almost like a mantis...
I lay naked as they look me over, first one, then the other...
the other kind, with the long snouts and the long faces
stay in the background watching...
11/30/1998
Drifting into dreaming I am actually taught a few clues...
I do not know by who is the teacher,
but I am in a class room in my dream...
The Shishwey are of three types, or sexes, of beings...
I am shown, like on a blackboard, but drawing in space
without any blackboard behind the letters or room around me...
The images appeared clearly before me and I saw:
x^x ... x^y
... to indicate the human representation of our splitting of chromosomes
and the bird-mammal anomaly of the mysterious Y chromosome
that is so unique and curious of a 'natural' adaptation
that none of Earth's earlier creatures had this mutation...
While for the Shishwey I saw an image like:
e^g ... e^f^g ... f
... and yet again I wondered what could this mean exactly
and I was told that they had three types of beings...
One type of being, the Hive Queens, are whole
and they have all the sets possible (center), like the xx human,
and they are female and being the complete ones
they channel new life into the material world,
though how this occurs I am clue-less of any graphic detail...
Another type is missing the single gene (left),
somewhat as the y chromosome is missing a little leg,
and these Warrior Kings are very wise, studious and ingenious:
they are the master designers, builders and technicians;
they are brilliant masters who serve life with endless devotion...
The third type are missing the greater portion (right) and are the drones...
they are the worker bees of the hive-like sexual physical cast system...
The Shishwey are a very ancient culture where the sexual roles
were resolved into peace in times past of countless remembered ages...
While Earth slowly evolved, they danced across the stars
and visited endless places across the vastness of the void
and nice places like Earth they visited often throughout it's growth...
The drones being much like diminutive forms of the Queens,
only the Queens are larger and have beautiful complexion
and are adorned with complex and wondrous body parts:
vast arrays of feathery lacy sensory organs and
multicolored vast pools as eyes that absorb any being...
The Queens are the ultimate in awareness, sensitivity and telepathy:
able to scan through the eyes of millions of drones simultaneously:
able to fully occupy countless of the little bodies simultaneously
and control their every move as if they were all her personal body...
The drones are simple humanoid reflections of the glorious Queens
living as pure nuns in absolute servitude of their holy mothers:
who's presence is constantly with them watching every flitter
and who can fill them entirely with pleasure and wisdom of ages:
who has the absolute power to require absolute surrender
and the right also, since she is the core of all remembrance...
The drones live a mere eighty thousand Earth years,
while the Kings are ancient beyond human conception
and have histories longer than the span of a human lifetime...
The Queens have watched over ages of Kings
and recover their past lives to know things from before our sun...
The Kings express an altogether different physical form
with a long snout, powerful mouth pincers and antenna:
they are fast runners and can fly with great power:
while their personal nature is quite calm and peaceful
they are the great demon hunters of many galaxies
and will conquer any race that their Queens desire...
Having long ago learned spiritual detachment and peace,
the Kings took the Queens and spread their societies all over the Universe
and reverently help the Queens tend the Spirit's gardens
and raise up intelligent and loving races of beings...
03/13/1999
A voice that tells me things in my dreams
whispers a bit of information, as a secret,
that there is an ancient Native American connection
with the Alien Visitors...
Year 2000
A tall humanoid with one human eye and one alien eye is showing me around...
We come to a table where I show him the ideas of cogs and train wheel effects...
There is a bar without a center, that has two joints to swiveling bars at right angles,
then a bar across, like a swing, only with legs, like in an engine...
He looks at me puzzled, as if what is it all about...
I realize that we are trying to establish some form of communication...
He is an attempted go between the standard hybrids and humans...
With one eye to see each races visual impression, to try and bridge the gap...
His reality and thought is yet very distant to our simplistic mechanistic views...
They scurry over me and my girlfriend while we are in bed...
They are like giant insectoids...
They have multiple legs and light-weight bodies...
Their six legs are on an anterior segment,
while their other body segment is perpendicularly upright and has a set of arms...
Their heads are insect like, with their mouth where a humans chin is and large deep insectoid eyes...
their triangular heads make quick darting glanceing movements...
They simply jump onto us from the bottom of the bed, and scurry over us, to look in our faces...
I scream as I gain some awareness, grabbing one by a one inch around leg and freezing...
In one instant I feel the blind rage of awakening under giant insectoids, wanting to throw them off...
The insectoid I have grabbed asks me telepathically if I was going to smash out her guts on the wall...
I shudder at the image and affirm that I wish to do no harm to anyone, but that I am fighting for my awareness...
I have a right to be aware and remember what goes on...
I release her and she scurries off me, as I fade from awareness into blackness, then into the morning...
I dream there are two aliens holding down the bed covers to keep me from sitting up...
They whisper in my ear that I am not strong enough to lift myself and them...
They whisper that as long as they are holding me, I cannot sit up...
I feel that my power of reason clearly tells me different...
In my mind I feel a surge of confidence and say, "Oh, yes I can."...
Then with supreme effort I do lift myself up...
I see them still hanging onto the covers at my sides...
I view their auras and their shine the color of spider's auras...
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